Katherine Mansfield experienced the effects of war at close hand, and was one of the few modernist women writers to be acutely aware of how it had changed the lives of
her generation. The death of her brother Leslie in October 1915 affected her deeply for the rest of her life and was the catalyst for her great stories about New Zealand,
while her trip to Gray, the Zone des Armées in France, to visit a lover, Franco Carco, was the inspiration for her short story ‘An Indiscreet Journey’. This paper explores
Mansfield’s reactions to war as coloured by these events. It focuses on her account of the trip to Gray as presented in her journals and letters, examining how she
reconstructed the event in fiction and delineated the consciousness of the first-person narrator in ways that are both comparable with, yet different from, these
autobiographical accounts. Secondly, with reference to the archive of accounts of this incident, I will compare Mansfield’s interpretation with that of her husband, John
Middleton Murry, in his biography, Between Two Worlds, and Carco’s reconstruction in Montmartre à vingt ans, in order to explore further the border between so-called ‘fact’ and fiction. This paper suggests that the deep distress and haunting sadness at her brother’s death, and the joy, which later turned to disillusionment, of her secret union with Carco in February 1915, constituted emotional extremes which shaped Mansfield’s attitude towards her writing, making her capable of speaking for her generation