King, L., Roxburgh, E. C. and Roe, C. A. (2015) The dreamy state: an autoethnography of spiritual meaning in epilepsy. Paper presented to: 2nd British Auto-ethnography Conference: Auto-ethnography: Reading the Body and Writing the Self, Aberdeen University, 30-31 October 2015. (Unpublished)
| Item Type: | Conference or Workshop Item (Paper) |
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| Abstract: | Study of anything can sometimes drain it of its feeling, its blood (Moriarty, 2013); this ‘psychologising’ then loses a sense of the embodied individual (Muncey, 2010). In the hidden world of the ‘dreamy states’ of epilepsy, the Cartesian mind-body split is impossible. Some people with epilepsy experience ‘dreamy’ or ‘cosmic’ spiritual states (Dolgoff-Kaspar et al., 2011); they talk to God, or know the oneness of the universe. The medical model pathologises these experiences, regarding them as, at best, hallucinations (e.g. Sacks, 2012) and at worst, a symptom of seizure-associated psychosis (e.g. Dolgoff-Kaspar et al., 2011). A personal crisis forced me to question my sense of self-identity and, in unravelling mentally, my body followed - my epilepsy became a concern. I was forced to look within to a defining condition that I had always rejected. I began to research individuals who find spiritual meaning in their epileptic auras where I have previously had none. My curiosity about ‘Other’ started me on a journey to re-defining and understanding of ‘Self’. I speak now as a researcher through and with my ‘illness’ (Frank, 1995) and wonder what is meant by health in this context. I propose to present an autoethnographic paper that offers insight into how auto-ethnography enables me to employ a novel approach to engage with this altered state of consciousness – a waking dream technique (Hamilton, 2014). Through this approach, I can explore the specific character and intensity of the feelings that accompany these epileptic events (Trimble & Freeman, 2006).This autoethnography will present the layers and voices of my narrative and the meaning my experience of epilepsy has in the criss-crossing of my personal and societal roles as researcher, student, woman, patient, psychotherapist. Auto-ethnography will allow me to give voice to this experience - indescribable by medicine (Frank, 1995). |
| Subjects: |
R Medicine > RC Internal medicine > RC346 Neurology. Diseases of the nervous system > RC372 Epilepsy B Philosophy. Psychology. Religion > BF Psychology > BF204.7 Transpersonal psychology B Philosophy. Psychology. Religion > BF Psychology > BF1048 Hallucinations. Sleep. Dreaming. Visions |
| Creators: | King, Louise, Roxburgh, Elizabeth C and Roe, Chris A |
| Faculties, Divisions and Institutes: |
University Faculties, Divisions and Research Centres - OLD > Faculty of Health & Society > Psychology Faculties > Faculty of Health & Society > Psychology |
| Date: | October 2015 |
| Date Type: | Presentation |
| Event Title: | 2nd British Auto-ethnography Conference: Auto-ethnography: Reading the Body and Writing the Self |
| Event Dates: | 30-31 October 2015 |
| Event Location: | Aberdeen University |
| Event Type: | Conference |
| Language: | English |
| Status: | Unpublished |
| Refereed: | No |
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| URI: | http://nectar.northampton.ac.uk/id/eprint/8210 |
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